By Crystal
Date: 1 October 2000
Finally Ready
I have prolonged this day, for what seems like forever.
I have held on, when you asked me not to, because I remained,
unknowing if you really meant it! You always say things out of anger,
you get mad when you are put on the spot.
And when you acted the way you did this week,
when you lost your temper....I became so scared,
You aren't the person you used to be in my eyes.
I can't forgive you, unless you ask me to.
We both know you will never do that,
you've always expected me to just do it,
because I always have with no reservations.
I make up excuses for you,
I analyze the way you treat me.
I do whatever it takes to,
try to understand you... to keep my love for you safe.
I love you more than myself,
when I'm with you,
I smile and when I'm not I drown in my tears.
I have to know.... Do you mean it when you say you love me?
Because when I look into your eyes, I can't tell anymore.
I deserve to know at this moment as scared as I am of what you will say,
Is it true you nolonger need me?
Don't be scared, open up to me,
I will always be here for you,
my friendship will never leave your side,
your love will never leave my soul.
My heart is ready for the truth....Is yours?
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