By Pixiesea@hotmail.com
Date: 10 October 2000
Dear Ben
Dear Ben,
So i guess kim talked to you,
and you told her we could be friends,
but that was all you wanted,
nothing more than friends.
When she told me that,
I should have been happy,
Happy that you were back in my life,
But it doesn't make me happy.
It makes me more sad than ever,
Will you be just a friend,
who talkes about your problems,
Cause that's what friends do.
Talk about problems and really good things,
Good things that happen to you,
Like a new love,
And i'll have to be happy for you.
But it will tear me up inside,
I'll smile through the tears,
And hug you and say "you're so lucky",
While i colapse inside, just fall apart.
And everytime we get together,
Just the two of us in a crowd,
I'll pretend you are mine again, we are together,
And i'll smile for everyone to see.
But then you'll drop me off,
Not open the car door for me,
Not walk me to my door,
Not kiss me good-bye.
Cause just friends don't do that,
I don't want to be just friends,
But it's that or nothing,
And i can't live with nothing anymore,
So, i'll have you and still be alone.
Powerless.
Crying.
Without you to kiss my tears.
-Christa
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