By Pixiesea@hotmail.com
Date: 10 October 2000
I'm bitter
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I'm Bitter
you're sleeping
you're dreaming about something insignificant
your head lays heavy on your pillow
your hands grasp the sheets
my eyes are weary (blink)
my back aches from sitting in this uncomfortable chair
my fingers are brittle from tapping away on this damn computer (stretch fingers)
and i'm so tired
my thoughts were all on you today
so i thought i'd write them down
but then again what would that help?
it would just be another reason to hold on to you (sigh)
god knows i don't need another reason
all i've done these past 2 months is think or reasons
why i miss you, why i need you
and what have you done? (shrug sholders)
you've gone about your day
unconcerned about me
while i sit here and complain to everybody else in the world
cause i don't have the guts to just call you up
well, go ahead and sleep
i'll be awake (yawn)
holding the phone in my hand
thinking of dialing up your pager number so i can listen to your voice
do you think that's pathetic?
i'd have to agree (shake head yes)
cause the world is full of guys
but i had to pick the one that doesn't feel the same
herd of that song, Ex-girlfriend?
"why'd you have to go and pick me,
when you knew that we were different, completely?"
ya, why did you pick me you jerk (sit up)
like i needed to waist the next 2 months
like i need to be typing this stupid fake letter to you
like i need to have other people reading this cause i can't send it to you myself
ya, add it to the rest of the crap in my life
shoud i forgive you?
i already have, which sucks (drop sholders)
you said you were never mad
no shit, i'm not the one that cheated on you (deep breath)
i still have homework
but i can't stop writing this
cause for some reason i need to write exactly how i feel right now
no bull shit, no fake lies
this is how i feel, truely
i'm bitter.
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