By Anonymous
Date: 1 September 2000
Him
I look up from my curled up position and I see him
His presence has always made me smile.
He is always there for me to turn to
He just seems to have this ability to show up when I need him
All the bad stuff from the day washes away
Suddenly life does not seem so bad
I have someone who loves me
I’m checking my e-mail and there is one form him
The thought causes me to smile
He never writes or responds to e-mails
The little gesture makes this day that much sweeter
I reply to his e-mail and tell him how much it means to me
I’m glad I have him to share my happy days with
I have someone who I love
He has been on my mind a lot lately
He is such a sweet guy
Some of my friends claim he has a crush on me
That cant is possible can it (/ he can’t possibly like me romantically)
We are only friends
How does he feel about me
Does he love me love me (/ does he love me romantically/ Does he have romantic feelings for me)
I found out today that he has a new girlfriend
I’m a little hurt that he did not tell me himself
I’m still happy for him though
He's a great guy
I’m surprised the he was single at all
I hope this does not ruin our friendship
I don’t want to lose him
I have not talked to him in a really long time
I saw him on AOL the other night but he really did not really talk to me
Some of my friends still insist that he likes me as more than a friend
They say that he is avoiding me because he is trying to get over me
I don’t know if they could be right
I miss the way things used to be
I miss him
Our Relationship has changed
I’m just confused now
Has our friendship been one big lie
How does he truly feel about me
How do I truly feel about him
Is it possible for things to go back to the way they were
I don’t know if I will ever find those answers or if I’m ready for the truth
So I sit and think about the past
I think about the crush I once had on him
I think about his sweet ways
We have so many happy memories and inside jokes
I don’t know what I would do if I ever lot him and our friendship (relationship?)
Maybe that is my answer and maybe not; I know that I love him, but how much and in what way.
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