By laurel ahlfeld drama_queen_ja@hotmail.com
Date: 6 August 2000
Tummy Trust
Someone I love very dearly once told me "Trust your tummy." I didn't understand at the time, so I later looked him up and asked him to go further in depth with his logic. He explained, "The heart is too emotional, and the brain is too logical. However, your tummy is not partial. If you go to your tummy for the answer, you won't be wrong." I found this very intgriguing for a long time, but I didn't follow it as gosple. I met someone perfectly wonderful a few days after this conversation and my tummy, heart, and mind said, "Yes, go ahead and check him out." I did and he became very dear to me. I started getting overwhelmed with all the commitments I had to fulfill in my life and I soon forgot the tummy philosophy. Using logic and brainpower was the only thing that would get me through the next few months. This young man treated me with the respect and love of a modern day Romeo, but my mind told me, "You have one too many commitments and there's only one that can go. It's not fair for him to be pushed aside. He'll be happier this way." So, I let my darling Romeo go. He was very understanding, though heartbroken. My mind told me I didn't have time to be heartbroken, though my tummy and heart said otherwise. The following week, I began to see my best friend in a different light. He was involved in almost all the activities that I was, and we both enjoyed the company of each other. We began dating just to see if a relationship could work. Fortunately it did. I became quite smitten with him in a matter of weeks. He seemed to be having a pleasant time as well, so we became "exclusive." He was not only the perfect gentleman, but he understood me and my interests. We both had an understanding of each others hectic schedules and never became selfish or upset when we didn't get time together. I kept falling even harder for him. For half of a year, we enjoyed our time together until his tummy said, "I'm moving away and I can't let her miss out on life for my sake." This was quite hard on me, because I let my heart guide me through this relationship. My mind seemed to have messed up the last one pretty badly. I suppose it was a good thing that the relationship was ended in love. He is still my best friend, and there are times when my heart wants me to say, "I love you". But my tummy says it will be easier on both of us if I didn't. Perhaps someday I will remember the philosophy of tummy trust when I meet someone special. And perhaps someday I will be able to truly love that man.
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