By Harem
Date: 28 March 2001
+ NO FATAL ATTRACTION +
Peering at me with his small soft eyes.
He knows me without saying a word.
Knowing what I will say, before I say it.
Knowing what I think, before I think it.
An eery feeling.
Amazing me with his understanding of human nature.
His discernment of life.
I stand in awe at his deep intelligence.
He knows me better than I myself
So easy to talk to.
I felt like crying, the first time that we talked.
Bringing out emotional feelings at first.
Too easy to be around.
No excitement, no attraction
no lustful desires.
My skin left cold
My tears untold.
Left with no desire to continue
No fatal attraction
No stomach knot
No craving aching spinning.
Nothing to fix
No challenge.
No brutal beastly charms
Just little boy arms
Nothing., nothing, nothing.
too smooth, too easy, too nothing.
Not sure if I can go on this way.
But I must give it a chance.
Just look at my awful past.
I can't be trusted to choose the one
I crave the brutal beast
Who stomp on me, and wipe the ground with my face
Controlling, demanding, posessing me
With utter disgrace.
A pattern so hard to break
I feel my heart will ache
For the excitement of the quake
Must settle for the child boy
His gentle tender touch
I feel half crazy
Everyone says he's good for me
He's what I need
Why can't I feel it.
Why does he leave me numb.
Just like them He thinks he's the one
That the cosmos has sent to me
He sees it in the stars
I don't.
I'll try.... I'll cry.....
I can learn
Grandma always said to marry someone you don't love.
But who loves you.
The journey has just begun.
I am soothed.
He is So easy to be around.
I love his company...
He's fun to talk to.
He knows lots about everything.
It will be alright.
I must give it time.
Maybe one day when the child boy.
Snuggles to my breast for solace
As I pull him close
Something within me will hear his call
And it will be all
Right.
In the night.
I must give it a chance.
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