By Star Of David mdavid@sltnet.lk
Date: 7 March 2001

Ghosts from the past

GHOSTS FROM THE PAST

Like tendrils slowly creeping in
Through an open window,
Memories of things that used to be
Are softly, stealthily flowing into my mind…
Things I tried so hard to forget…
I hear you whisper secrets in my ear all over again…
I taste the mashed potatoes I forced you to eat along with me,
Saying it’s good for you…
I remember how we used to talk in our “dolphin” voice…
The way others used to say we were so good together,
Made for each other…
All the promises come to mind as if we made them only yesterday…
I can feel all over again the first sharp stab of pain I felt,
When I found out about her…
The way you wept when I said I’d go away…
And then you said, ”Will you marry me?”
And I said no. Why? I don’t know.
We were only children back then,
Burdened with such deep feelings for each other.
The kind of love you almost never find in crazy, fun loving, 
Seemingly oh-so-free teenagers…
I thought I had forgotten by now…
So long after we’ve gone our separate ways…
But I know I will never forget. I can never forget.
You were my mother, my father, my lover, my child…
I will not forget though I pretend to hate…
Pretend to never really have loved in the first place…
And now you have become a ghost in my head…
A ghost from the past that I cannot escape…
(120600)