By Ali
Date: 13 March 2001
Could Not Ignore
I tried not to look, I tried not to see
I didn't want to see your face
Didn't want to see you smile
Oh, God, I tried...
But, your eyes called out to me
A voice, from the very depths of your soul
And I heard, what I just could not ignore
I didn't want to laugh at your jokes
I didn't want to wish for you to hold me
And how my skin would tingle, when you would brush against me!
I found myself smiling, continuously, in your presence...
There were all those hidden meanings, in what I said, in what you said
And I said so much, but didn't seem to say enough
For I still have things to tell you, that will never get told
And, no, I was not always that outgoing, not always that friendly
I never shared so much of myself...
I didn't want to get lost, in your arms
I didn't want risk it all
I didn't want to give you my heart
I tried, I swear that I tried
But, I could not look away
Now, I find myself without you, and I long for your touch
For these nights do grow cold, and these days empty
I never appreciated what I had, until you left
But, I know that you, you were never really mine
So, I tried, I tried to forget you
Yet, these memories burn hot...so hot
Embers from a slowly dying fire, stubbornly glowing
And, I am reminded of that song by Frankie, "It Had To Be You"
The lyrics running circles, inside my tired, aching head
'For nobody else, gave me a thrill-with all your faults, I love you still'
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