By Me aka Niki
Date: 4 March 2001
His eyes
His dark eyes, almost black
With the longest lashes ever
Ever so sweet
I remember his eyes in the dark, looking at me
I didn't see his face, only his black eyes
Piercing in me
And sometimes I'd even see a diamond, a light, a star, a twinkle
I would see beyond
other times his eyes didn't have any emotion, dead, black and dark
Only black eyes looking at me with no feelings whatsoever
Or the times he wouldn't even look at me
I would only see his lashes to the ground
I remember when he would kiss me with his eyes open
Looking around like a nerves chihuahua
it made me laugh
But sometimes when he kissed me he would look at me in a way
That I loved
When he looked at me with passion and love
That's the one thing I think I'll never forget, ever
His eyes piecring in me, the twinkle in them
He has a smile in his eyes and he looks so caring
Those were the times that convinced me that he loved me
Or the times when we would look at each other at exaclty the same time
And then just lock
For I don't know how long
But I would just forget everything and everyone around me
And only see the black eyes
That's when they always looked sad, saying sorry for all the times he made me cry
I also thought that sometimes I would see guilt or regret in them
Or something that was so shy, he would look, but from behind his lashes
Like a shy little child that was all alone
I would be there for him, if he would only let me
Now these days
I never see him anymore
So I don't see his eyes in the dark or while kissing me
I don't speak to him, so I don't see the playfull or sometimes serious eyes looking at me
And the worst part of it, the thing that really gets me
Is that we never look at each other at the same time anymore
As if it was meant to be
We never lock anymore
And if I do look in his eyes
I don't see anything
I know it's all done and over
Because of the way his eyes look at me
His eyes so nice
so beautiful
Are now looking at her
Not at me
I'm just happy that I saw beyond and further in his eyes
I'm just grateful that he gave me that look
That I know how it looks like
I'm just happy I got a chance to look in his eyes and be in that black hile
And falling
Falling in love because that's what happend
I fell in love with him and his eyes
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