By Du'Doll
Date: 16 March 2001
Letting Go of You
I had convinced myself that it didn't hurt anymore
I was wrong
It hurts more now than it did when I first found out
I guess I will never be completely over you
But it is too late now to be telling you all this
Tomorrow she will be walking down the aisle to meet you
My dad will do the ceremony
You will say "I do"
She will say "I do"
You will kiss an it will all be over
So many times I dreamed of you spending eternity with me
Holding you close, not missing a thing
I remember those days and evenings
The way we looked at each other sitting by the fire
You strumming on the strings of your guitar, me closing my eyes
Wishing the night would never end
But is has, everything has ended
Now I am sitting alone starring bleakly into the computer screen
Tears pouring down my blotchy skin
I thought I had cried all the tears I could have cried over you
But the thought of you and her forever breaks me into tiny peices
For so long I thought that you and I were going to be forever
A happily married couple, growing old, being burried beside each other
I was wrong wasn't I...I had everything mixed up
I am sorry for feeling this way
Believe me, I wish I didn't
When I see you next, I'll smile and pretend to be happy for you
I will compliment you on your wedding pictures and your wedding band
I won't let you know that on the inside I am falling apart
I hurt so bad, and I don't feel like fighting anymore
But for myself I will keep on, pressing on, holding my head high
But it will be awhile, cause I am still letting go of you
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