By chantae
Date: 12 March 2001

mending me

God, please give me the strengh to let him go.
I know I ask so much from you already,
and I know that half of what I promiss you I break.

But you see God he's getting married but not to me,
and even though I tell him I am happy for him I'm not.
I lied and hid it behind a fake smile.
Forgive me.

I konw I'm not suppost to question you but why?
You know how much I love him.
Five years I have cried to you,
I have begged you to make him see,
and at times God, I really thought he had.

Its killing me inside.
I cant think, I cant eat, and you know I cry my self to sleep.
Tell me what to do?
God please hear me out.

I look at this life an I see nothing good in it,
except for loving.
I mean what else r we hear for.
All our lives we spend it searching for someone,
   someone who understands us,
someone whos soul will become one with our,
and I found him,
but he's getting married.

God with out him my life is lonley,
there will always be others I am sure,
but it want be the kind of love I need.
I starve for the way he makes me feel,
for the way his crystal blue eyes see to my soul,
and how his every touch feels like heven.

I know God I am being foolish arnt I,
I know I am being selfish and I should be happy for him,
but its hard.
I know you said there would no pain to harsh to bare,
so PLEASE GOD, give me the strengh to keep pretending
that I am happy for him.
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