By amanda
Date: 19 March 2001
sleepless at 1am
So I'm sitting here on this moonless night, at around 1am, hearing the rain fall against the spanish tile rooftops, and I know I should be sleeping.
But I'm not, I'm listening to this rain that's not letting up, and wondering why I have to drive through it tomorrow for five and a half hours, to go back for a week to a place I know I'll want to drive five and a half hours back from in about two days (aka my parents house).
And I'm also wondering why I'm not going up to North Carolina to stay with my best guy friend for the week...
Just to far of a drive for me I think.
And why I'm not going to see my best girl friend in tallahassee, who goes to school there...
Oh that's right, shes on a cruise. Forgot about that.
And why I can't take a long drive up into the mountains, or maybe across the country, or maybe out of the country...
Just not enough time in a week.
And why I'm not going to the place i want to be, where I can feel complete, filling the gap of unhappiness,impatience and misery..where it doesn't rain, and the sleep comes naturally and perfectly, lying in perfectness myself.
Oh wait, we broke up. Forgot about that too.
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