By Star Of David mdavid@sltnet.lk
Date: 10 March 2001

to be free

To be an artist, to be a dreamer,
To smile for a change
Was my dream.
Not having to live,
With hands that shake,
And a heart that trembles so. 
Scared to break free, yearning to fly, 
To stop these heartaches,
And rest awhile. 
Not to be broken, and beaten,
And bruised.
To run away from you,
From myself,
From all the abuse.
Bow my head and
Hide from pain
And friends and shame.
With dark eyes and spirit free
At night I think and wish
And dare to be
All that which you tried
To kill in me.
But it no longer comes
No longer calls
The voices are gone
I am finally alone.
But you are still
Right here, so near
Signifying all that I hoped
Would never happen to me.
From this I wish to flee.