Don't Have The Words

By Ali
Date: 28 March 2001

Don't Have The Words

I don't have the words, I just don't have the words I cannot describe these feelings, quite how they are I miss you, immeasureably And, yes, I love you, beyond all these feeble words And, I have known pain, despair, regret, longing But, still, still there is this love Barely beneath my skin... I just want to have you, or forget you But, neither seem possible, now For I cannot have you, you are not mine to have (Were you ever?) And I know you do not want me, now (Did you ever?) Ahhh....forgetting you, an equal impossibility So, I'm still trapped, within forgetting and remembering With thousands of feelings inside, that I cannot quite describe And jumbled and clashing, inside of my head Is every word you ever said And I just want to be strong enough Strong enough, to deal with all the information But, God help me, I don't think that I am I've let all these feelings control me These emotions have overidden my mind... These words are poised on the tip of my tongue But, they are hollow and worthless So, I am silent... How I hate to be alone! Something I rarely talk about, but is true, nontheless I am tired of being alone, for this ache grows by the minute It does pain me so, to live amongst these shadow apparitions Not once beholding something real (You were so real, to me) And these words I have written seem to barely scratch the surface Of all that I hold, hidden within myself I cannot tell you all, cannot convey it all Because I just don't have the words...

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