By Elaina
Date: 8 January 2001
I'm Happy Where I Am
NO! No one needs to see me cry,
all the tears I have inside,
all I give, and all I take,
no one cares that I hide.
No one needs to see my pain,
the hurt inside that builds and swells,
It's my stupid wall, I need it,
Can I live without it? Only time can tell.
No one needs to see the fear,
I've drown it in a sea of hope,
and opening up to strangers...or you,
that definatly won't help me to cope.
Not that I don't appriciate the effort,
it helps to know you care,
but to let you, of all people see me vulnerable,
are you CRAZY! I don't even dare.
Not that I don't trust you,
but you'd enjoy it more than me,
to see me tell you all I feel,
to open the lock and give you the key.
Maybe I'm happy here away from harm,
safe and sound behind my wall,
where I keep every feeling, every thought,
every word I wish I could speak, this is where I keep it all.
And maybe this struggle is all pretend,
because I want to let you in.
But for some reason I doubt it will happen,
because then I'd have to let everyone in.
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