By Elaina
Date: 15 January 2001
Looking Back
Twisted fate has won me over,
and brought me to this dispair.
I can't decide what's wrong or right,
if I was cheated or if it's fair.
You haunt my every waking moment,
because now I fear it all.
Because of you I'm stuck right here,
unable to let love fall.
I know it's really not your fault,
if you really loved me you would have stayed.
Your feelings grew for her,
and for all the hurt you caused me I know you paid.
I can't say I don't hate you,
because some days I really do.
But you have to understand
I'm unable to love all because of you.
It hurts sometimes when I think of you,
and all that I had to loose.
It hurts even more when I think of her,
and that you even thought to choose.
So here I am scared to death,
to let myself love once more.
I fear that I'll loose again,
and be back here wondering what it was all for.
I've learned a little about myself,
and what I can and cannot do.
I can walk away from love,
and blame it all on you.
False love I wear too often,
and let it fall apart at the seams.
This is a sad reality,
but what exactly does it mean.
You took a part of me with you,
when, for her, you left me.
Now you don't have either of us,
and (you know who) can't see.
She's is blinded by your manipulating,
all the lies you tell so strait.
Well, some day it'll just happen,
you'll be a dollar short and a day late.
You're such a coward,
I'm sick to say you've also turned me so.
I fear now what you taught me,
and I'm afraid the tears you brought will always fallow.
You crushed me into a nobody,
you saw your life turning into nothing,
and tried to bring me down with you.
But I moved on to BIGGER and BETTER things.
You stayed in the same worthless spot,
and within reason went back in time.
You are no one, maybe I'm a little harsh,
but you through my life out of rhyme.
I'll finally say it Goodbye you fool,
because I'm better off without you.
Your lies won't hurt me anymore,
and this Goodbye I always knew.
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