By Du'Doll
Date: 30 January 2001
A Reason
I searched endlessly for hours last night
Trying to find a reason
Looking for someone that allowed me to touch their life
Faces and names ran through my mind like water
But I wasn't sure if I had enough of an affect on them, to make it even count
I felt as if I was digging through dirt and filth
Going deeper and deeper with my bare hands
I found something in the soil, I stopped digging
The answer to all my doubts had alway been in my hand
Why hadn't I seen it there before
I must have been blind or just plain stupid
If I have just touched one person
Made one person smile or laugh, then I had done something right
I wasn't a failure to everyone
The only person disapointed in me was myself
I had tried to be perfect
Working day in and every night
Pointing out every mistake and imperfection
I became overwhelmed with my own hate
Never once did I stop and think
Maybe that the person I am will never be the greatest
I will probably never be famous or win a prize
But if I have tried to be who I was created to be
If I have smiled and in turn made someone else smile
If I have learned and helped someone else learn
If I have cried and held someone while they were crying
If I have ever loved or been loved
That alone is reason enough
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