By Me aka niki
Date: 14 January 2001
What's happening?
What's happening to me?
I have the feeling that I can't write anymore
I stare at a blank piece of paper
And I have so much to write about
So many scrambeld ideas in my head
But I don't know where to begin
And I don't know how it put my feelings down on paper,
In words
Everything I write,
Makes no sense
Everything I say,
Is wrong in a way
I thought it was the people around me,
But I'm beginning to get the feeling,
That maybe it's just me,
Maybe there is something wrong with me,
Maybe I'm so unhappy,
That I succeed in making other peoples lives miserable,
just like my own
Or maybe maybe,
Nothing has changed,
And it's all in my head
What's wrong with me?
These days,
I cry,
For no reason whatsoever,
I feel lonley in a way,
But still I don't miss anyone
I feel confused,
And I don't know about what
I'm falling in a pit,
I know I am
I feel it,
I have to get out
But I can't,
I'm scared,
I call everyone,
I try to let them know that something's wrong,
That I need them,
Not everyone sees it,
Everyone is so busy with their, happy lives,
you see
So Here I am
This Is what I wrote,
And I do feel a little beter now,
thank you
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