Shouldn't Feel Like This

By Ali
Date: 27 January 2001

Shouldn't Feel Like This

I went crazy Again, today Broke down While no one was watching Or while they were pretending Not to watch... It seems I've lost everything Now I don't really know how that Happened I don't exactly know How everything slipped away How you slipped away... You, who was never Really mine To lose You're like the wind Belonging to no one Felt, but never seen Warm one minute Chilling, the next Here one moment Gone the next... It seems that I've Said it all before And that this should now Be a thing Of the past That I shouldn't fall apart Anymore Crying, on my knees I shouldn't feel like this Any longer I shouldn't act like this Anymore I shouldn't love you Should have never loved you Should have never opened myself up Like I did But, I did... And it's done... But it isn't 'Cause I can still feel the aftershocks Still dealing with the wake You left behind If only I could leave this Behind As easily as you Left me behind... Damn you You and your Charm Damn me Me and my Weakness... Maybe tomorrow Will bring release A release from the hold You still have over me Maybe tomorrow I won't feel you Hot, underneath my skin Maybe tomorrow I won't feel the burn And all this will be Gone And maybe I'll be okay Maybe... Maybe I'll realize that you Aren't as nice As I thought you were Maybe I'll let yo And these tears will all Dry up Perhaps, I'll forget you And how beautiful you are And I won't recognize you When I pass you on the street Although I don't think I'll ever forget Your un-matched beauty... Maybe I'm just waiting for A tomorrow that will never Come Maybe I'm hoping That the play isn't over And that the curtain only closed For an intermission That there is still more To come In the two-act play... I'm just not sure If the play is a romance Or if it is An old fashion Tragedy... I suppose that I will Just have to wait And find out...

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