By TheVampire@goplay.com
Date: 19 January 2001

Just have to tell ...Lisa

Lisa,

Here are somethings I just Have to say. I am not sure if
you already know them or if you ever will, but I must say them...

Never in my LIFE have I woken up in a cold sweat thinking
about some like I did with you. I was scared to death!!!!

Love they way you used to straddle me.  *Big ASS Smile*

Loved they way you made me feel on my Birthday..I really was in awe
over you. WOW, you really are beautiful....

Guess the reason why sometimes I acted a little strange was because
I really didnt want to make ANY mistakes around you. Probably would
have been much better off just being myself. Isn't that what made
you fall in love with me in the first place.

I really would have done anything for us to be together...IF I knew
you felt the same. Guess there was a little doubt. Dont know why, you
really never gave me a reason to.

YOU made me feel special...Thank YOU!

Rememeber the time we went to the river ....and we went all
the way up to your friends place. Well, when we were driving back
and you were sitting up front with me....I really dug that!!!

I was scared to death of loosing YOU!!!   Even though I know what
went on between you and Doug...It really was ok. I knew you needed
to find out if there would/could have ever been anything between
you two.

I will never regret anything of what we did. Just wish it could have
been a little different.

Every word I ever wrote to you was from my heart and soul...
Do you know I havent written a single line of a poam or such since???
Just not moved like I was.

Please understand what my kids mean to me. I dont want to EVER hurt
them or have them wonder where Dad is. Guess thats what makes me
a little different, is that I am putting my kids first before me.
Maybe one day, it will make a difference in their lives.

Truely in my heart....I do believe we are soul mates. Cus even after
all that went bad, when I think of you...I still SMILE.

And last but not least and maybe the most important thing,
I loved you...as a matter of fact I still do and always will.

You are such a wonderful, bright light!!!!  You are my ANGEL!

Sure wish you could hear these words....

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