By whit ; whitney_23@yahoo.com
Date: 29 January 2001

What was and What is

It started out
As just a crush
Whenever I saw you
My heart turned to mush

I didnt know anything
Much more than your name
But I suppose I had
Only my shyness to blame

After what seemed like forever
The silence was broken
And we both became
So very outspoken

I watched that small crush
Grow and grow
Till I liked you
More than you'll ever know

"Lets just by friends"
I heard you say
So many excuses
I sat thru that day

I tried and I tried
To let my feelings go
But it was impossible
I hope you know

No they never left
But I hid it so well
No one would know
No one could tell

We stayed friends
We kept in touch
But it was getting to be 
Way too much

So much effort
Came from my side
I wanted to keep
This friendship alive

You always insisted
That nothing was wrong
Until I stopped talking
For so very long

After it had been
A few weeks or more
Here you came
To reopen the door

After that you kept
In touch for some time
But then the duty
Was again mine

I ignored you again
Only to see
That after a while
You'd start talking to me

The same old thing
Has happened since then
I stop talking and
You start once again

This time it has been
Much longer than before
You haven't come back
To open that door

Whenever I see you
You still say hey
But other than that
You dont have much to say

You once asked why
I dont think you're my friend
Well now you know 
And it's all got to end

After all of this
All I've been through
I wish I could say
That I totally hate you

I can't hate you
Though you've hurt me and such
Cuz I think I love you
And I miss you so much