By nikki
Date: 3 December 2000

It Could Have Been

It could have been any
ordinary day, from any
ordinary life.
But it was a strange day
in the middle of a strange
winter, my first winter
in this less than normal
place.

It could have been the
hat, or the twinkle in 
your gorgeous blue eyes,
or perhaps the smirk you
wore when we first met.
But it wasn’t you I saw
as you were replaced by
a vision of my ex-Mike,
and I said so to your face.

It could have been the first
ten minutes, or the first 
ten weeks, or months
that I knew you were trouble.
I should have walked away.
But instead I listened to you
and learned too much to turn
away from and still remain
true to myself.

It could have been a love to 
outlast time itself.
But signals were crossed
and I invested too much in
 a fantasy romance for you 
to ever live up to.

It could have been me.
But you were just to blind
to notice, or maybe you
just didn’t give a damn.

It could have been...
But what good is speculation anyway?
NL 12/3/00