By me aka niki
Date: 30 December 2000
a realization at 1:53 A.M.
Tonight I was talking to a friend
And I told him how long I had had something with you
He said I was a fool for caring that long
He didn't mean it in a bad way and only wanted to give me advice
When I was in the car going home
I was looking at the lights and the wind was blowing in my face
And I always told my self, just to soothe the pain, that I was Special to you and that you did care a little bit and that I just must mean something to you
Because we were always "on" and "off", we never stoped and couldn't stay away
You never were involved with someone as long as with me
But now I know why we had something that long, why you always came back
It wasn't because you couldn't stay away and missed me
It was because I was the only one that let you back in
It wasn't because you cared
I was the only one that was so dumb
It wasn't because you wanted me
I was the only one that was so blind
It wasn't because I was special
I was the only one that was such a Fool
And I was the only one that cared that much and you knew it
I know that it should have hurt much more then it did
I know that If I had realized this a few months earlier I would be a wreck right now
But I'm okay, Just writing a poem at 1:53 A.M...But nowadays that's becoming a normal habit
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