By Ali
Date: 19 December 2000
Unseen
In the shadow
Of this darkness
I can find no way out
I am lost here
For such a time
That the length is
Undetermined
And I know not
The outside world
For I am not of it
Anymore
I am simply anywhere
Everywhere
And nowhere
I have become
What I thought impossible
I have changed in my cocoon
Like a butterfly
But not so
I turned to something ugly
Not a bright whirl of color
I turned into the nightmare
Or,perhaps, I am just result of it
Because the dream changed
Quickly, violently
So that, the dream was no more
In its place was a nightmare
A fiendish, horrid thing
A thing that became my life
A thing that eventually became me
Because I could no longer control it
Or decide my fate
My path was set for me
And I am forced to walk it
Once upon a time
I was where I wished to be
In a place that made me smile
Where happiness was free
But then the story changed
A damn twist of fate
And I came crashing back to earth
Landing in this place
A place where I have learned
To hide the tears I cry
To focus on getting through
And getting by
Instead of getting back
Back to the beginning
Change isn't always bad
But this isn't how
It's supposed to be
But, I'll say this is up to fate
Yet, still I try to fight
And a fight against fate
Is a losing battle
But, I don't want to be here
In the shadow
Of this darkness
It wasn't supposed to be like this
I guess I just didn't see it coming
Damn it, I've been blinded
Once again
By my foolish heart
Still, around me there is darkness
As I trip and fall
Unseen
All around me it is so dark
But inside...
Inside there is a spark of light
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