By Ali
Date: 24 February 2001
Faults
What it has taken, to get me to see
Is insane...
I fought so hard against the truth
Only to find that I was the lie
I took what I could get, and what I got
Wasn't much
I lived and died, sufficated by his illusions
Only to be resurrected by my own...
I'm everything I said I'd never be
And I'm in a place I never thought I'd reside
But, this realization comes too late
I've already fallen to peices, and I've been scattered
By the wind
I didn't want to see the shadows in his soul
And, in truth, I barely see them now
Because I wanted to believe him good
I wanted to believe him everything that I wanted
For a time, he was what I had been so erraticly searching for
But, the seasons changed, and he grew strange
Smiling less and less
I could never tell if he was really happy to see me
And the final strand eventually broke, and he was gone
Without a word
Now, I should have moved on, but I just could not
The evidence and facts were so contradictory
I just didn't understand, why he did, what he did
I thought I was all he would need
I know that I tried to be...
I believe that it was him, who taught me how to love
And it was him who also taught me how to cry
He taught me so very much, and oddly, I am gratefull
I wouldn't classify him as a mistake
Although I have some minor regrets
And, I wouldn't say that I don't miss him
In truth, I sorely do
But, now I see him, as he is
In all his beauty, with all his faults...
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