By Me aka Niki
Date: 8 February 2001
Last Night
I called but not to speak to him
But he picked up anyway
I only said Hello
And he recognized my voice
He just said "No,she's sick"
With a strange hard voice, mad and shaking
And then there was a silence
He hung up in my ear
No good-bye
I stood there with the receiver at my ear for maybe 15 seconds
And I felt the darkness on the other end
And I remember having a vision of a dark hole
I came back to reality and hung up
Slowly turned around, walking to my room
Tears started swelling up in my eyes
Ring Ring
The phone again, I hesitated to pick up
Ring Ring
It was my best friend
I was so quiet she asked me what was wrong
All I could say was his name
I didn't get any further because
I started crying uncontrollable
Teardrops rolling down my damp cheeks
Hysterical sobbing
I couldn't breath
Chest moving up and down
Shaking all over
Panicking
Telling her how much I hated him for my pain
How I want him to get out of my head
He's always there, ALWAYS
I act as if I don't care, and Smile
He left 5 months ago,
And I asked her, How come he still has the power to do this to me?
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