By Me aka Niki
Date: 13 February 2001
My bad-boy
Why do you do this to me?
I was fine untill I met you
Th only pain in my life
Was the problems surrounding him
But I learned to deal with them and it became a part of me
I became bitter and hard
And I had built some strong walls around my cold heart
But you
You broke them down
Without even the slightest effort
I fell for you
And i know exaclty why
It was because I could talk so well with you
The first time we spoke was for 4 or 5 hours
And we hadn't even met in person
After that we talked and talked
And we became so close in such a short time
You trusted me, I know you did
And I trusted you, too soon
Another mistake of mine
I even told you about him
And when I said "sorry for bothering you with this"
You only replied" do you feel better? because that's what matters"
I melted away by your words
You told me secrets, your life story, your way of thinking
And you were and still are a challenge
I like that in a guy
Your a real bad boy
Someone hard that doesn't care about shit
You head is so hard to understand, you even say so
And your so damn unpredictable
And sweet at the same time
You held my hand and held me close
Against my will the walls I had built in a year
Broke down in a few weeks
And now
We don't even speak anymore
I try to reach you
But you don't want to be reached
But I guess that that's a part of the deal
That bad-boy kind of type
That doesn't want anybody to understand or reach him
But will make you feel so loved
Can pull away at any second
I miss the old you And I want you back as my friend
Nothing more, your friendship means to much to me
Won't you be the you I knew, again?
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