By Me aka Niki
Date: 14 February 2001
It's not fair
I wonder what he see's in her?
I wonder what she has that I don't
And I wonder what I did or said
That was wrong
I wonder why I wasn't enough
I wonder if he even cared
I doubt it
I hate him for what he did
And I want to hate her so bad
Because she took away the one thing
That I realy cared for
My first love
Doesn't anyone understand?
My FIRST LOVE
The first guy to touch me
The first guy I dealt some steamy kisses with
The first guy I gave my heart to
And then she takes him away, just like that
And I just want to hurt her so badly
I know it's selfish I know it's not fair
Whatever I had with him was a mess anyway
But He was mine first, the day she met him he was with ME
I doubt that she even knows my kind of pain
I don't think she has cried as much as me
And maybe I'm wrong, Maybe her life isn't all that
But even if it isn't
Even if it was one big storm
It has to be a tiny bit better then mine
Because when problems come around she has him to talk to
I don't
She has him to hug her when she feels alone
I don't
She has him to make her smile
I don't
She has him
I don't
Above everything I feel used, lied to and backstabbed
I lost him, she got him
So doesn't anyone understand
How much I need him?.....
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