By Ali
Date: 27 February 2001
Can't Smile
Stumbling upon reality, I find I am quite taken aback
The illusion I thought to be real, is no more than one of my dillusions
Cracking, shattering, falling to peices
Here we go, once again...
Somebody hand me a broom, will you?
I need to sweep up this mess that I've become
I'm trying to smile, but my mouth just won't agree
I'm trying to forget my insecurities, but that isn't happening
Why does it seem that I'm so perpetually lost?
I can never find my way, out of the darkness
This shadow of the past...
I hold my words, in silence, and barely breath, today
The quiet here is disconcerting
And I know not what to do, for my choice is not a choice at all
But, I cannot change these circumstances, even though God knows I've tried
So, I'm forced to stay, in a place I do not like
Where everybody looks the other way
And nobody seems to see me, when I cry
Yes, I'm crying over you, but also over me
I don't know, I just can't seem to smile today
I'm just another cause that's lost
So, forgive if I'm less than cheerfull
Forgive me if I sit in silence
Because there is nothing I could say
That would make anyone listen
So, it's useless, just useless
And I just can't seem to smile
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