Trying To Find Yourself

By Ali
Date: 25 February 2001

Trying To Find Yourself

And, now I know, I'll never be the same I am forever changed by your touch, by your kiss By your kiss... Lying here amid the ruins, of my broken heart Among the tattered peices of what is left of me Collapsed, in the arms of my troubles Listening to the secrets that are softly spoken, by the chilling breeze I realize that I'm different Not good Not bad Just somehow, different I fall in on myself, into the spaces that you made For a time, trying to fill those deep, ever-painfull gaps But, that chilling wind just keeps blowing through me... And I thought about leaving today, just a quiet passing thought I thought about singing, but I couldn't remember how Then I thought about your eyes... Am I ever gonna learn? Am I ever gonna learn how to forget you? How does one turn off their heart? A heart whose beats have become irregular, erratic But, still, still remain strong... I don't think that I can take another empty moment I don't think I can stand anymore acts I don't want to play that part that I have been cast No, I don't want to talk about it 'Cause talking about it has become useless No one ever hears...or, more correctly, he doesn't hear And these lives that we made, separately Just never seem to fit together, and I don't want to be somewhere Where I just don't belong... Comprimise is gone, and surrender wouldn't be wise I didn't want you to go... I wanted you to come back... Now, I find that you're around again Again like a shadow, there, but quick to dissapear You're always a breath away, but somehow, out of reach I know that I'm weak, and I realize that you are too But, I don't want anymore lies I just want to see things the way they are No more games... I wonder what you see in me, I wonder what you want Are you still searching for the things you lack Or did you find yourself somewhere, out there, among the stars Tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet? Did you dance there, among those stars? Was it everything you wanted to find? Are you ready to be yourself, not the lie you tried to be? Did you miss me, I mean really miss me Like I missed you... Did you miss me when you were out there, trying to find yourself...

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