By Harem
Date: 7 April 2001
" Allowing Him Entry to my Soul "
His Project
The challenge
Wanting the very thing he couldn't have
My virginity
Working on me for several years
Eventually he gave up
Joined the Army
and disappeared
I began to miss him intensely
I started dating other guys
They only made me miss him more
I began to compare them to him
They couldn't match up
There was no one like him
The saying...
"Don't it always seem to go...
You don't know what you've got
till it's gone...."
That was me.
His absence left me aching
An empty void in my life
Suddenly the realization hit me
I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM.
He came home on leave one weekend
And asked me to marry him
I turned him down
Since I had a PTA scholarship
to Newark State Teacher's College
Then I got an offer from Bell Labs
as a Computer Programmer Trainee.
Torn between him, college, and a job
The pressure was immense
I got my shots to go to college
Then changed my mind
Lack of money
Then I accepted the job at Bell Labs
Then declined
I was blinded by my feelings
After accepting his proposal of marriage
We became intimate
Allowing him entry to my soul
Enchanted with our love making
Skipping school to be with him
Obsessed with our new found intimacy
He quickly lost interest in me
After that.
The bull had serviced the cow
And now it was time for him to move on
One night
When he was picking me up from work
He told me that we both needed
to start seeing other people
I collapsed in the parking lot
He backed up his car
Almost running me over
And left.
His friend, Glen, stayed behind with me.
Helping me up off the ground
He called a cab
And took me home
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