By Ali
Date: 5 April 2001
Forgiven
You'd think I'd know better
Than to forgive you
You would think I'd be smarter, wiser
You would think so, wouldn't you?
I tried to be angry, because anger would have been appropriate
But, I just wasn't angry
I was way past the anger, way beyond what little rage I felt
I was hurt, just hurt
And my eyes always betray me, saying things they should not
Telling you all of my secrets, all of my secrets...
So, there I was, and there you were
I heard you speaking, heard the words you said
And, looking in your eyes, I saw your heart
Reflecting back at me those things you were saying
Now, if I was smart, if I was wise
I would have walked away, not allowed you back into my life
Would have turned my back on you, for all that you've done
And for all that you haven't done, or said
But, I could not see you there, like you were
Look in your eyes and tell you to go to hell
I could not do it
And, yes, that probably makes me weak
You've always been my weakness...
So, I forgave you, because I'm a fool, because I love you
Because I believe in forgiveness and second chances
Maybe things will work out, this time
Maybe they won't...
Maybe things will be okay
Maybe you'll break my heart...again
Only the fates can know for certain
But, I'm willing to take a chance on you
Again
I'm willing to risk it all
Again
I've already forgiven you....
Yes, there is so much at risk, so much at stake
And, God, this won't be easy, nothing ever is....
So, I forgave you, darling
But, I cannot help but wonder, will I regret it?
Only time will tell...
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