By Star of David
Date: 16 April 2001

Letter to the grave

Letter to the grave.

Missed you so much today...come to think of it, been missing you everyday for the past few years. I write you a letter everyday darling...sometimes when I’m going out, I pretend I’ll be meeting you and smile while getting dressed...when the time comes to leave, I tell myself, “that’s enough now, be normal”.
Went for a walk in the cemetery today baby...read the carvings on the head stones and missed you more. Most of the verses were about meeting again and seeing each other someday...I hope to God that’s true baby ‘cause then I have something to look forward to...being with you again...my saving grace...
I still wake up in the night with you on my mind, missing your love, your voice, your touch. I’d give anything to know if I’ll ever hold you close again... All I have are memories and I can’t get warm without you. It’s been so cold since you had to go away. Seems I’m still standing in the same place waiting for you to come back to me...
I’m walking in circles angel searching for something to take the place of your love and each time I think I find it with someone else, after a while I realize that I’m wrong. No one is you and therefore unworthy and I can’t find it in me to stay. Why should I be with anyone else, when I belong there with you? Why aren’t you here with me? I miss you and wish you were here to hold...
Months upon months of missing you have turned into years but the feelings haven’t changed or faded in the least. Forever and ever, no matter where I am or whom I’m with, I’ll never stop wondering how you are, if you’re happy and loved and smiling from inside...you’ll always be on my mind...
I remember how you used to say that even if we’re apart, you’re happy when you look up ‘cause we’re beneath the same sky... And even though you died baby, you’re still in me...As the song goes, “A part of you will forever be a part of me...”
I love you so much...Looking at the snaps make me miss you so much more and I don’t want to live without you... This life without you ever coming home to me again, is empty and loveless and meaningless to me...
Nothing matters like you do sweetheart. No one could ever take your place in my heart. I shared everything with you and no one else comes close. How could I ever forget baby? The heart never forgets that which it holds sacred above all else.
The love you gave me was the best I’ve ever had in my life and nothing will ever mean more to me. I’m so alone and lost without you my darling. I love you for always...I guess our motto, “Forever and always, and when I die, I’ll keep on living for you” did come true after all, ‘cause you’re still alive in me baby... I love you, love you, love you...always you, only you...