By iLLblEeD
Date: 19 April 2001
What if? *decided to bump*
what if i’m not able to forget the past
i keep asking myself that
the question reeling
propelling itself around in my mind
like a merrygo round with no one pushing
the little girl i was
grown up now
and empty
I drove through town this morning
relished in the truth that i’d driven that road many times
but aware of something new and different
ths place still seems foreign
as though after all these months i’m clinging
even though you’ve already let me go
forced to grow up or give up
i smile
hiding all the pain of a love
picked up and thrown away
with the evening trash
spins and turns
of my childhood
frilly dresses and patent leather mary janes
disappeared
now i’m here with no realization of being here
i can’t escape you
and can’t grasp me
a past haunts me like a dream unfufilled
i may never be the same
all my dark secrets
realized
dissolved
and gone
i am no one
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