By Elaina
Date: 16 April 2001
Safety Net
All this nonsense we talk.
As if someday we'll be understood.
Will these words make you stay?
Or is it empty lines that we say.
I mean no harm in my honesty,
I suppose the only harm is done unto myself.
For my words blind, and weaken all other senses.
I put up a sheild and knock down your defenses.
Now only do you live in my mind.
That perfect soul that matches mine.
And I can talk of the time I once had you.
How you held me, and for a moment had me too.
I wish I never met you.
Never met your eyes with mine.
Because you pollute my thoughts, the dream is dead.
You twist the knife with every word unsaid.
Carefully I rebuild my faith.
Hoping that love, won't do me in,
But as it seems it'll be the last of me.
And all the damage done you will see.
I feel anger with every fiber of my being.
But I continue smiling for some unknown reason.
I'm standing here, dressed like a queen.
My cries go unheard and my hate unseen.
Terrible pain that swells in my heart.
The ageless romance dies and takes a little of my soul.
I've never known what time could pass when you were here.
And now all the unbearable time that passes without you near.
Wishful thinking only gets me down.
But the only way to avoid that is to give up.
I wish you could taste the tears I've cried.
All the suffering of hope that I've tried.
(unfinished)
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