By slug
Date: 22 April 2001

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Once again my heart breaks,
and into my lover's arms i fall
Once again the world breaks,
and all my tears begin to fall.

I don't think I've cried this much at one time since
(december)
                  i'd rather not say

I look and wonder where my good old days went
                                    (super-nostaglia,
                                yesterday was so much better, and
                                    tomorrow's going to suck...
                                  when i try to adjectify today...
     my brain is full of
grey clouds that coat the sky
                 and april is supposed to be happy
spring is texas is the reason we're here
                 though the winter of my discontent
                                           walks circles around my chest
)

I feel so much pain
loss re-runs in my life
                       (the grandmother
                           the dog
                          the father
                          the brother)

if i was a country song, i'd be a hit.

but my lover...
             my lover who is my pillar
         (if i manage not to run him off)
               and he makes me wonder

      why a man such as the father is a man worth loving and
       why a man who aspires to be the father is worth trying
                                                          to save

and my lover...
             who is my lover...
    wraps me in a hug and tries to absorb my pain.
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