By Patty Drummond  (Prettypurr@yahoo.com)
Date: 25 April 2001

Thousands of wishes and a few kisses

Remembering kisses
Remembering whispers and promises made in the dark
as I begin to cry I start counting my wishes (I'm up to a thousand now...)

I wish upon my star as I've done so many times before
and as always, my wish evaporates in the night wind
I wish upon every star just in case I chose the wrong one

I wish I could have saved us
I wish I could have been
whatever it was that you wanted, needed
I wish I didn't love you still
I wish I wasn't looking for something to fill this emptiness
because nothing is going to fill that space for a long long time
it's like my heart has a strainer in the bottom

I wish I knew where to go to find peace
because nothing is peaceful anymore
I feel like I'm screaming in the middle of a deaf world
but if someone asks how I'm doing,
I tell them I'm fine
why explain when it just doesn't matter anymore?

I loved you
and felt loved by you
I used you
and felt used by you
I cried for you
and know you cried for me

I didn't want to be alone
so I wished on a star for you
You came into my life
and back out again
and then you returned
then left again
please stop doing that
my heart is not a yo-yo

Time marches on and so must I
although I'm a reluctant soldier
in this war we had
Our battles fought and ended
and the biggest casualty was our love

Take good care of yourself
since I can't do that now
Have a good life
I need to let go of you now
along with all those silly wishes I've whispered into the night air
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