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By flash Date: 2001 May 29 Comment on this Work [[2001.05.29.20.13.3941]] |
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You are nothing short of amazing. Have I told you that? Oh, yeah, only a hundred times. You gave me everything showed me all you are told me I am beautiful when all I could do was cry. I'll never know just why, I fear I'll never understand what you see in me. Especially when right now I have nothing to give to you. Sunday morning... I awoke feeling warm from your body and even warmer from your spirit and I almost cried right there because I knew I couldn't have you because I don't have anything to give back because a little boy is still trying to figure out why everyone he ever loved left him hurt and alone. Now a man looks in the mirror and sees that little boy The one who's not supposed to go outside The one he's struggled to keep hidden to keep silent for so long. That kid has been crying for years and I have to let him even if it means I lose you or I never feel love again. Before the man can love the little boy has to cry to silence the child is to kill the man and sacrifice the lives of those who loved me for nothing and perhaps the saddest thing is I have to lose your love because I can't return it. I tell you again that I've never met anyone like you. Do you really think anyone else would be my friend after the shit I've pulled? I don't deserve it I know I want you to know I cherish it above all. I know no greater joy than the gift you have given me. And if I could right now, I would love you. If only I could love myself. But my friend, I promise I'm working on it. I'm not running anymore. And that's a promise to me. Thank you CB. I wish my words did you justice. |