By Galadrial
Date: 2001 Jun 14
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Not Of Your Choosing

Not Of Your Choosing
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An accident you said---
not intended.
Only you've always said
there was no such thing as accidents.
You said that not choosing
was a choice,
and people forget that
at their peril.
And now I am gutted,
not by your hand---
but pale slim fingers
you handed the blade to.
You writhe in misery---
it hurts you that i am hurt.
You are not worthy---
Coward.
Own the pain you caused,
Look in my eyes again,
and tell me that I was mistaken.
Harmless fantasy.
The ravings of an unstable woman.
You had empathy for her,
poor thing.
Her cooing did not matter.
I was your love,
your lover.
But when the choice
came to an explanation
you did not wish to make,
or helping her to hurt me
you choose.
So do not tell me
that this shit
was not of your choosing.
Just don't.