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By Du'Doll Date: 2001 Jul 06 Comment on this Work [[2001.07.06.22.23.23551]] |
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I am not really sure what has happened in these past few months. I know that I found the love of my life. Maybe years from now he will hurt me, who knows he might even break my heart. But someone told me that it is better to love and be loved then to never have loved at all. Love is a battle, a relationship is the war. Right now both he and I are winning. Any loss has yet to show. What I can't figure out though is what happened to our friendship. It is obvious that we both have developed. Our worlds were separated. You had your life and I had mine. I had relationships here, you had yours in your own town. Our paths just branched off in different directions. I always knew it was going to happen, I think you knew it too. We never expected things to change so fast. I am still trying to figure that all out. We had everything planned out. The same college for the year. Working on our relationship with God, and growing closer to eachother without being miles and miles apart. Like I said before things change. Now I am being led in a different direction. It is not a man that is pulling me, its not the lack of money that is tugging at me, its not the will of my mind that is stopping me. I am being led by my Father in heaven to a different place, much like where I am living now. Infact, it is the very same town. I don't mean for this to hurt you, or to bring you down in any state of mind. I love you, my dear brother, I just needed to tell you that I am not coming. Things won't be that different, I promise you won't even think about me being gone. You will fall in love with someone that fits you perfectly. Someone that loves you, and practically worships the ground you walk on. You need someone like that. A woman to lift you up when you are down. A love behind you supporting you 120%!! I just don't want to leave you wondering, and asking where I am. I am staying where I am. It isn't time for me to leave. I just want you to understand that I just am not coming. You know I love you Justin! You will never have to question that. I am still going to be at your wedding, and I still want you to be there on my happy day. You are going, I am staying. But our love for one another will never change. |