By Betty-Boop
Date: 2001 Aug 09
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Sorting thru the Weeds

Meeting guys on the internet has been
So frustrating, disappointing, and annoying.
I thought it was fun at first.
So much fun... so exciting....

Until I became meat on a hook.
Guys jumping out at me on the Instant messenger
ten, twelve, fourteen at a time
I, being too polite... tried to answer them all.

They want to meet right away.
Don't want to take time to get to know each other.
They often want my measurements before talking
I learned to steer clear of them

Some were honest about their lustful motivations
Others hid it beneath poetry and fancy words
Still others hid the fact that they were married
or already in serious relationships

They lied about the marital status, their age,
their professions, and much much more.
When I was not ready to jump into a meeting
They would get angry and nasty.

Some would give me a little time to know them first,
but most would accuse me of being a game player
If I wanted more time.
They were in a big hurry... I couldn't understand.

Although, I was not looking for a serious relationship
as I was enjoying my newly found freedom
I did not want to be used or mistreated
nor passed around like marijuana at woodstock

And then there were those whose words and actions
deserved academy awards for best actor of the century.
In the beginning I bought their words
and believed them at face value

Boy, did I get hurt....
Guys offering me keys to their place.
Offering their hearts on a plate
Proposals of marriage on our first date

One guy opened a very old bottle of wine
that he said he was saving for his soul mate
For the one, who he was going to grow old with
I begged him not to open the wine
He poured it in deceit.
I drank it in innocence complete
The relationship was over, before it began

And so this scenario repeated itself many times.
Until, I began to get smart and learn my lessons.

I had guys that dumped me on a first date
When it became obvious that they were not going to score
immediately.....
They felt I was not worth the time it was going to take
to get me into bed.

Many started out with sweet words
which turned pornographic within a few hours
or less.....

The internet is a fun place for people
who want fast, easy sex.... with little or no cost.
Possibly a dinner or movie out.....

But for those looking for a soul-mate
Or a relationship with substance
It can be quite frustrating to say the least.
But soul-mates and wonderful lovers are there.
You just got to be cautious, careful and discrimating.
And not let people force you into anything
or push you around....

I have found several very wonderful relationships
Thru the internet.
And I guess it was worth all the hurt and pain
That I got from internet love - in between finding them.

Among the weeds, lies some beautiful lilies,
just waiting to be found and picked....

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