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By Zero #1 Date: 2001 Oct 09 Comment on this Work [[2001.10.09.01.43.12224]] |
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*Ahem* Are you afraid? Like the rest I mean??? Only one hasn't been afraid......and I left her behind She had a bright mind,,,,almost could piece the pieces together before I could....she was almost there. And I left her behind.... Do you not yet understand? Do you not see the deepness of my eyes? Can you not feel the responsiveness of my soul? Can you not yet feel the unyielding searching,,even when I look away from you? I don't bring this upon you. I never wanted it. I want it to go away....Upon 18 yrs.,,it grew,,,,She fostered it and something about her triggered it's growth... Now....upon 20 yrs....another growth has appeared... I never meant to scare you. Just don't try to hide stuff from me.....I almost think that it cannot be done. And those that think they have.....listen.just because I don't talk about it....or bring the subject up....my feelings get HURT....my feelings get WOUNDED,,,,when I have to PUT TOGETHER...all those TINY pieces that you wanna just try to HIDE FROM ME.......don't do it anymore. Be frank wth me or not with me at all. If you cannot learn to live by your words and do as you say, then I beg you too. Listen to what you tell me, because I remember most of it...Life lessons they are called. The nervousness of the soul seems to have no bounds. The cheating of the loving seems to have no end. Have I brought this upon you? No...................... She knew this a long time ago.....She..knew.....she could feel it when I looked at her.....when I touched her skin... she could feel it............ I just wish It would go away.....No more waking dreams, no more foreign thoughts....no more repressed memories... No more. I love myself and who I am. No one can take that away. No secrets in me;No secrets in you Do not be afraid. |