By collegechica
Date: 2001 Dec 05
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'Respect, a Perspective'

"Respect is won in different ways
With females, you're a trusted pal
That never tells secrets and is
Always there to tell the other that
They are a great person, nice.
With males, you have to take a
Shot in the mouth, a big hit in
The biggest game of the season.
You have to not cry and be sure
To laugh and stay emotionless.
I won respect tonight myself, but
What's funny is that when they
All turned their heads, I let go.
I cried, mourning the fact that
I could never be beautiful to them.
I will always be "one of the guys,"
And as much as I used to want that
It's ironic how much I hate it now.
I hate it with a passion I've never
Had for anything else before tonight.
I feel so ugly, so below their standards.
I don't know why I am mourning that,
I don't know why I feel like I feel.
All I know is that when I was hurt
All I wanted was someone to come
Give me a warm, inviting hug and say
"Everything's going to be okay, okay?"
But I'm just not their type, not theirs.
No, never ANYONE'S, damn it...
And I hate it more than anything else."