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By Elaina Submitted by where is your heaven Date: 2001 Dec 14 Comment on this Work [[2001.12.14.00.39.14050]] |
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I must have thought of you a thousand times today. I was hoping you would call, but you haven't. Every time I thought of you I get this feeling in my stomach, so strong I thought I was going to loose my lunch. My heart would race, and I'd begin to feel dizzy. I thought I must be getting a cold. I sat for a while staring at my phone, wondering if I should call, I didn't. I figure if you want to talk you'll call me. I know that you have other obligations, although, you seem to know exactly where your heart lies. I sat with you for hours the other night, listening to you complain...well not really complain but state many things that you disaprove about your girlfriend. And I wondered why you are still with her. Then you claimed, just as it states in the stars, yoiur relationship with her is purly sexual. I then understood. yet you told me you think you're in love with her...can love survive on just sex? Perhaps. Still you told me that we are going to get back together, and I remembered telling you I wasn't going to be here every time your other relationships fail you. But I know I would not be able to deny you. Even though it would both teach us a valuable lesson. So in all my thinking, analyzing and 'sickness' I'm scared of you. Scared you'll hurt me, sacred I'll loose you. Why am I so scared...because I'm so much in love with you, I would risk almost any thing for you, I would do almost any thing to keep you happy, and I know that may not make me happy. What do you think? |