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By Elaina Submitted by where is your heaven Date: 2001 Dec 22 Comment on this Work [[2001.12.22.05.31.12216]] |
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Always held the sand loosly in my hands, hoping that what didn't fall through would balance on my finger-tips. Then the fear that I may drop it all would set in, and I cling tightly to what's left only to open my hand to an empty dingyness. Always let kisses remain kisses and hugs, hugs. But I always tell myself just one. And one turns into three, four...I forget now. So I constantly cross that line, hoping for more. Reading between the simple black and white text only to conclude there's nothing in between. Never have I tried to change a soul that I fell in love with. I did, after all, fall in love for a certain reason. I suppose only sufficating the person that needs to grow. Reaching out a helping hand just in time to realize my services are not needed. Never attempting the impossible. Love will come when it is time. No friendly pushes, no hint dropping. Just letting a heart fend for itself and learn in it's own time. Trying to maintain who I've always been, but muttering 'I love yous' under my breath. Forever I've been feeling that I have all the right moves. I thought I knew all the rules. Let things be. For if it was meant to be it shall be, all things happen for a reason, and all good things must come to an end. Now I understand, I let the end, end my emotion, when healing should ring in my ears. Forever I've been thinking... 'It's not me, it's them.' By now I should know I've had a lot of 'them.' With all the lessons I've been taught I discard the knowledge with each new victim. Now I know the most important thing of all I've never been good enough. |