By Du'Doll
Date: 2001 Dec 30
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Wounded, please help me

I know you don't understand how I feel
I don't expect you to
If I tried to explain it to you
You wouldn't get it
I would sound like a broken record
To you I would be crying
Although, honestly
Inside I might be dying

Truth is, it still hurts
I gave you my whole heart
You tore it in two
Then you tried to stich the pieces together
Ok so mabye you are an amazing seamstress
But it won't ever be like new
I was wounded
My heart was broken
And I am still learning how to forget

I tell you that I am fine
That I am over it
You and I both know that I am lying
I do forgive you
I do love you
I do trust you
But what am I supposed to do
How am I supposed to react
When little things happen
A phone call
A picture
A memory that reminds me of pain
Of course I am going to be upset
I am a woman
And I love you so much

I trying to heal
But when things happen
Stich by stich
I feel like I am, once again
Falling apart

I know I lie
I try to hide things from you
Reason being, I don't want to whine
I don't want you to think me dumb
Think me to be stupid or weak
I want to be strong for you
But it hurts you
And I am sorry
I don't ever mean to hurt you
But I know I do

You lie to me to
You hide things that you think will hurt me
You keep things from me
Trying not to upset me
But if you knew
It hurts me worse
Because I usually know
And the lie, well, it tears me apart

I can't expect you to change
You are who you are
And I love you for you
You can't expect me to change
I am who I am
And you love me for that

But you are right
These little lies need to stop
The nit-picking and meaness
They to need to stop
We both are in the wrong
We both, in turn, hurt one another

We love eachother
I care for you
You care for me
I am not going to let these things tear us apart
We are both stronger than that

I shouldn't snoop around
Then again I shouldn't have to
I shouldn't run and hide
Then again why do I feel like I have to

I love you more then life itself
I would die for you
I live for you
Please forgive me
Please love me
Please hold me

I need you
You need me
We are a team
These fights are pointless and painful
I am asking you to help me
Help me move on
Help me trust you
I can't do anything alone
I want to be a better friend
I want to be a better wife
I want to be but...
                   will you help me?