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By Elaina Submitted by where is your heaven Date: 2002 Jan 05 Comment on this Work [[2002.01.05.02.38.31661]] |
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When you look back at all this mess will you laugh? Or will you smile and nod. Saying that was fun? Will you remember all my kisses? All I've said out raged human emotion, I wish I could take it back. Pretend I've never loved you. But I still here and you smell is on my clothes and I can't wash away all you've done. I begin to feel less and less as each day goes by. I wonder how long it will be until I feel nothing. I realized something today...all you feed me are excuses. Why you want to even keep me around in the first place I'll] never understand. That if you cared for me like you claim you do, you let me go. You wouldn't keep hurting me. And perhaps you hole no restraights, but your words and your kisses keep me right where you want me. I am your puppet, your fool. And when I finally realize that you are nothing but a broken heart I'll be set free. You say you don't want me to just go away, and yeah the point has been made perfectly clear that you want me to wait. You say you are only with her to help her. Then why must she sleep in your bed, hold your hand, and kiss your lips. Friends can sometimes offer more help than any lover can. So I suppose it's just another one of your excuses, and you can't tell me why you are still with her. So I will stop asking, and stop believing that I'll be the one standing in the end. I'll stop believing all your stories about how it'll all be ok. It's beyond that. I'm not ok. I'm not ok! So when I look back on this I'll laugh, smile,nod my head, say, "yeah, that was fun." |