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By musicalduck Date: 2002 Apr 04 Comment on this Work [[2002.04.04.17.06.6805]] |
| ive been replaced, yes. in your heart and in your mind. and its just not fair. i know at times, i took things for granted and i didnt realized what i had till i lost it, but i can't help but be mad at you for leaving me. i guess you could say that was one of the worst weeks ive had all year. the day before i was terribly sick and then i see you and you tell me its over. you thought i got your note, but i didn't. and how odd it is that her birthday is the day before mine. so when my birthday does come, you will most likely forget it because you were so caught up in her. and let me ask you. do you remember that time when i was out of town and called you at 10 in the morning but you thought it was 8 and wanted to go back to sleep. and i wouldnt let you get off the phone, i made you talk to me. well, how can i make you talk to me now? do i need to call you again? nothing is clear anymore. i dont understand your words or your actions.the only thing i understand is that i miss you. i remember little things you said to me, that probably nobody would remember.and do you remember last year at the fair when i had just met you?and we rode the ferris wheel together.so the fair is soon, but youre going to be riding it with her this time, not me. and its as if ive lost every part of you. and i ask why me? but i dont think anybody could answer that question. sometimes i pinch myself to make sure this isnt some nightmare, because if it was when i woke up id make sure id tell you how much you meant to me. i remember the first time i got my heart broken, i said i wouldnt let anybody do that to me ever again. you were the only guy i fully trusted after that, then you broke my heart. and its not that i dont trust you anymore, its that i dont trust myself anymore.its almost been 2 months. thats how long it took me to get over my first love, and that is only because i found you. but i dont want to find anybody else, and i dont want to miss you anymore, i just dont want to be broken hearted. and one more thing, do you remember telling me nothing was going to happen between you and her? wll, look what happened. happy birthday to me.. |