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By Bridget O Date: 2002 Jun 14 Comment on this Work [[2002.06.14.08.28.28704]] |
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I'm going to the movies tonight w/ my friends. The last time I went to the movies w/ my friends was the night that started it all. You put your arm around me- I thought we were just friends?!?!?! I leaned my head on your shoulder, and held your hand that was around me. And my other friends gave me confused looks. So we got closer. And I felt - uncomfortable. But I also felt -right. So I went along, b/c I liked you I think. And I knew before the night was over, I'd have your heart forever. And I knew someday I'd hurt you and break that very same heart. And that day is today, b/c I'm going to the movies w. my friends. But I still went along. And then the credits went up and nobody moved. So we went to the lobby. And holy hell, I hugged you goodbye, (which I never did b4, but there's a first time 4 everything) and you kissed me. At the movies In the lobby And that was exactly 2 1/2 months ago. And in 2 1/2 months I was the happiest person ever and the most miserable. . And I was right, I had your heart and I broke it. And now I'm going to the movies w/ my friends and I'm said I don't love you anymore but I'm happy I'm free and I'm happy that He will be there. The "HE" from my dream. I'm meeting him in the lobby at 7 o' clock (w/ other ppl, not just him) and there's nothing you can do about it. But I swear I won't hold his hand or hug him goodnight or have the one kiss that will start it all. I won't have his heart forever and I wont break it b/c I care about him too much to do that. And I'll sit far away from him (or maybe right next to him) and I'll simply watch the movie, even the kissing scenes while I'm right beside him. And smile b/c your NOT beside me, and he is. B/c you won't be kissing me and neither will he. And I won't dance w/ him and he won't put his hands in all the right places. And if he tries to put his arm around me I might smile, and lean in. or I might get up and walk out. I'll always remember that night w/ you that started it all.... But I have a feeling I'll always remember tonight for------------ another reason. Just going to the movies w/ my friends.6/14/02 |