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By muryan Date: 2002 Jul 22 Comment on this Work [[2002.07.22.16.28.13027]] |
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I would rather dream of you than love someone new in the waking world ~Dream Haiku by Misti Since I was a child I always had this feeling that I was in love with someone. I always had this memory, this vision, of a man in my life. I could see him in my minds eye; I knew his scent. Sound strange to you? Drives me crazy, but it's true. I sometimes wonder if it is a crossover memory from a past life. Perhaps I had some unfinished affair, or an unrequited love. I was watching "Always" the other day, and I heard Pete (Richard Dreyfus) tell Drinda (Holly Hunter) "...The love that we hold inside, is the only pain that follows us here..." Of course, this was the airplane scene at the end of the movie and Pete was already dead. However, I nearly cried when I heard that remark. And the most peculiar thought occurred to me. I believe in reincarnation you see, and I feel that sometimes your emotions and your memories come with you to your new body. Sounds reasonable right? Anyway, I thought, perhaps that is why I am always searching for something I cannot find. Maybe that is why I have yet to find a guy whom I cannot remain interested in for more than two months. I'm looking for my past life love in this person, who's soul might not have ever even come in contact with mine. So that explains all my failed relationships. However, when I think of you, my first love from this life, I wonder why am I still holding on? Why am I still dreaming about you, and fantasizing about you coming back? Is it because my whole life I've been dreaming of something that doesn't exist, and I cannot help but keep a hold of it? I don't know. And perhaps I never will, but it was just a thought... |